i have a strong desire to wear loads of eye makeup, smoke cigarettes
and either do some form of visual art or talk shit with strangers.
except i wear a good amount of eye makeup daily,
and while i'm good at holding them, i'm indifferent to smoking
and i'm a really lousy artist
and i prefer to talk shit with friends. less hurdles to jump before you get to the good stuff.
doesn't stop my desire to be someone i'm not.
in fact nothing stop that desire, probably why i became an actress.